It has taken me a few weeks, but I can honestly say I have “closed the old folder” now. I am in awe of God’s grace and how faithful and kind He has been to me through this. When you have that kind of grace poured out on you, it’s only natural that you turn around and do the same for others. I have a fresh set of eyes on what went down, including why the counselor did what she did. That doesn’t mean that I agree with it or even like (and that is actually irrelevant), but I have an understanding and with that comes the ability to put things to rest and close the folder so to speak. Do I wish I could talk to Mary about what God has shown me? Sure I do, but I am still getting a no from Him. Perhaps someday I will be able to, but I am not pinning my hopes on someday because that may be in heaven! It is in God’s hands, and I have a life to live and work to do.
I thought I’d post the pic of the lion in the clouds for you (that I mentioned in a previous post). My apologies for the black border, I guess this was a screenshot of the original. Anyway, some people see it immediately, and others get distracted by the mouth (which looks like a key, interestingly enough!). It was just a random shot taken from the top of a mountain in Vermont three weeks ago, and I didn’t notice the lion until I was looking through my pictures that evening. I had been asking God to be my defender, and I guess He was just letting me know that He heard me and was roaring on my behalf!
I am packed and ready to go on a new adventure with God! I leave for Alaska tomorrow. And God is already filling up the blocks of time in my schedule that I was to go to North Carolina. He truly does work everything together for my good because I am trusting Him, and I look forward to the beauty He brings from these ashes.