I am finally getting a few minutes to write about last weekend and I sit here and don’t even know where to start! I’ve been to more than twenty Global conferences, but this one was different. Was it because I was in a better place, more able to receive? Or perhaps the experience over Christmas gave me a fresh set of ears? There were so many “God moments”: a word from David Wagner and one from a student (“I hear God saying He’s going to bless your socks off”), the way the Pray-As-You-Go devotionals dovetailed with what was happening each day, God touching my back Friday night–which had become quite sore from all the sitting–when Will Hart called out a word of knowledge for it during worship. One that had a big impact was actually a gentle rebuke, and I think I’ve gotten the message now, Lord, lol. It was Saturday night during worship and I was singing and said in my heart, “God, I just want to feel Your presence! I just want to feel Your presence!” I didn’t add “like other people do,” but He knew it. So after worship David Wagner gets up and starts prophesying again and says, “And God wants you to know I AM MORE THAN A FEELING!”
I am making peace with me and the way God has made me. He knows my heart, my desires, and–I believe this is key–what I can and cannot handle. I think I could handle it, but the truth is I don’t know. In any event, He knows best and I trust Him more and more each day. I saw a quote by Kathryn Kuhlman today, “The greatest human attainment in all the world is for a life to be so surrendered to Him that the name of Almighty God will be glorified through that life.” Help me, Jesus. I need your help even in surrendering!