So this morning I awoke with a chorus in my head. My question is, what do you do with that? What do you do with a God who is crazy in love with you? And how should that change your life? Wait, that was three questions :) I hate that I am so easily distracted by the mundane, by the duties, by the busyness of life when all that really satisfies is Jesus. I find myself praying Psalm 27:8, “When You said seek My face, my heart said to you, Your face, Lord, will I seek,” but how does one seek a God who is omnipotent, omniscient, one who never leaves or forsakes us? And how does one stay focused on what really matters in a world that clamors for your attention? More questions. I feel as if I have spiritual ADD or something, that my mind is headed one direction, then oh look, a squirrel! I have tried many of the methods to reel it in, to focus, to practice His presence, and sometimes I think I am no farther along than I’ve ever been. ~sigh~ And then he wakes me with, “Wild thing, you make my heart sing, you make everything groovy!” Does He really love me that much? The answer is yes. My head gets it. My heart isn’t quite there yet.
As I head into another busy day I wonder how much of that busyness really needs to be done. I am so driven to check things off a list, to feel as if I’ve accomplished something. I’d better learn how to rest before He has to teach me, lol. And yet as I type that I am getting ready to go dig dandelions out of my yard. There are probably a thousand of them getting ready to turn into wispy globes, and my job today is to get as many of them picked as I can before the wind does its job. I started doing it yesterday and came up with a plan. Every time I dig one I say the Jesus prayer, “Lord Jesus, have mercy.” I need His mercy, I need more of Him, so I won’t whistle while I work, I’ll pray. To some it would seem like mere repetition, but it helps me focus, and I need all the help I can get! :)