I know it’s been a while since I’ve written. In fact, I’m not sure I’ve written at all this year, but it’s not because nothing is happening. In fact, there’s a little bit too much happening at the moment. I’m actually typing this from Global. I had my regular day directing the webcast, and afterward one of the students stayed to work with me on a political ad for someone. I dropped her off and headed back to Global because I have a meeting to go to later so there was no sense running home. Got a few more things done and then got a text from my friend that something has come up and she’s not able to help me. Add to that the fact that I have somehow misplaced the video card from the camera I used to take for my Talent Show project and you have the recipe for a meltdown.
I can feel the “freak out” that wants to rise up in me but I keep reminding myself that though this is a setback for me it’s not a surprise to God. I have no idea what I’m going to do, whether I’ll even be able to pull off the ad by myself or get the Talent Show project done in time. Perhaps I wasn’t supposed to do either. Then again maybe it’s just a test to see if I’ll give up or press through. I’m not sure which it is at this point. I don’t like saying yes to things and then backing out (and I’m sure my friend didn’t either–she had a very good reason why she had to).
One thing is for sure, I need to get myself emotions under control before I go to the meeting. No one needs to see the tears I’m holding back right now.