I’m taking a few minutes to post because it looks as if the next several days are going to be wild busy, and I had an interesting dream so I thought I’d start by sharing that. I should have actually written it down while it was fresh, but I remember parts and know that when I can remember them hours later they usually have some significance. When you are open to God speaking to you in dreams you become attuned to when He is. (Hint: When you can remember them, He is.)
In my dream, I was at my church. There is a long lane which leads up to it (it sits on a hill) and I remember seeing someone approach and knew this person was a threat. When he came in, I crouched in a corner, curled up in a ball, and I “saw” this person aim a shotgun at me. I’m not sure how I knew it was a shotgun, but i did. I also “saw” myself sitting there trembling. Then he turned and headed for a bedroom in which I knew my mother and my sister were sleeping. I ran out the door and down the lane to the nearest neighbor (who lives across the road at the end of the lane). I pounded on the door for help, but no one would come. Then the man with the gun came looking for me, and I think I ran off and hid, though at some point I think the police came.
Among the options for definitions I looked up, certain things “felt right.” First, the church. It’s the first time I’ve had a church appear as a house in a dream, but evidently it’s not uncommon. In such cases I believe the definition of “it may represent an individual” is the one that fits, so I think this dream is more about me than about the body of Christ.
Next, I looked up shotgun but there wasn’t a specific definition for that. There was one for shooting, though, and “damaging words” and “confronting or penetrating words to your face” stood out. (If it were a rifle, it’s more apt to mean words spoken against you from afar, or even words spoken against you distant in time, i.e., from your childhood or past.) I also looked up gun and found that a loaded gun could mean threatening words.
I looked up mother, which can mean many things (the church, the Holy Spirit, natural mother, spiritual mother, heavenly Jerusalem, Israel, the past, nurturer, the law/legalism). Sister can mean the church, kindred spirit, fellow believer, one’s natural sister, wisdom, and even Judah and Israel.
Next came neighbor. I found it interesting that the fourth (of six) definitions was “the person of the flesh in you (particularly if that person is at enmity with you).” I think the fact that they wouldn’t answer the door (I knew they heard me) makes me lean toward that, although “a companion” and “someone with whom you have experienced separation or division (i.e., a fence has been erected between you)” are possibilities. There was a fence on the property, but it was the door that was was between me and them. It said to also see “next door” and when I did found “signifies a parallel from your life of what is happening in the Spirit” which someone how made sense to me. Then I had the thought to look up door and remembered it was not the front door but the back door I went to in the dream, discovering that it can mean “past, doubt/unbelief, not coming in the recognized way, backsliding, and even secret sin.” Hmmm….I’m going to have to ponder this one.
Did I mention that I had a migraine last night? Haven’t had one in a while and threw up twice before it went away. Amazing how you feel as if you have a new lease on life after one passes. Also interesting that I’d have this dream on the heels of that.
I did take the time this morning to do my scheduled reading. Wish I could remember the name of the method I started using a couple years ago. It utilizes ten lists, and you read a chapter from each list every day. I know that I’ve gotten off sync with the chapters, sometimes only getting five of the ten done and then forgetting and starting over a few days later. But I haven’t done this since before we went to Alaska (no tsk, tsking allowed, lol). I’m often amazed how ten portions of Scripture can often tie together.
My first tab was at Deuteronomy 14. Verse 2 was highlighted, “For you are a holy people to the Lord your God; and the Lord has chosen you to be a people for His own possession out of all the peoples who are on the face of the earth.” Next came Judges 19, that horrible story about the Levite and His concubine. Perhaps if the Levite hadn’t been so easily delayed and left at night instead of morning this wouldn’t have happened (though I realize it happened for a purpose). But it struck me how the old man who took this Levite in offered up his own virgin daughter and his concubine in place of the Levite. That about broke my heart. In the end it was the Levite’s concubine who was taken and murdered, but I can’t imagine a father ever making a suggestion like that. Next was Psalm 82, “Vindicate the weak and fatherless; do justice to the afflicted and destitute. Rescue the weak and needy; deliver them out of the hand of the wicked.” Is God speaking to me here? He knows how riled up I get when I see women being oppressed. Flip, flip, flip, Proverbs 16…verse 3, “Commit your works to the Lord, and your plans will be established.” Hmm…Ecclesiastes 4:1, “Then I looked again at all the acts of oppression which were being done under the sun. And behold I saw the tears of the oppressed and that they had no one to comfort them; and on the side of their oppressors was power, but they had no one to comfort them.” Okay, He’s got my attention. Isaiah 38, the story of sick Hezekiah being restored. Wasn’t I just sick last night, feeling as if I was going to die? I can certain say, as he did in verse 19, “It is the living who give thanks to Thee, as I do today; a father tells his sons about Thy faithfulness.” Matthew 9 was next, which tells the story of one of my favorite biblical characters, the woman who touched Jesus’ garment and was healed. That chapter talks a lot about faith. It also contains Jesus’ only prayer request, “Therefore beseech the Lord of the harvest to send out workers into His harvest.” Acts 9, Saul and his Damascus road encounter. Haven’t I been praying for an encounter? 1 Cor. 3 emphasizes the importance of a good foundation, for “each man’s work will become evident; for the day will show it, because it is to be revealed with fire; and the fire itself will test the quality of each man’s work.” So is this talking about judgment day or a baptism of fire? 1 Thess. 3…now I know it’s Paul talking about the church there when he says “as we night and day keep praying most earnestly that we may see your face, and may complete what is lacking in your faith” but I have been praying to see His face was reminded of that when I read this.
And now I have to sign off because I’m cooking a meal for a wedding rehearsal dinner tonight, but I’ll be pondering all this while I putter about. “It is the glory of God to conceal a matter; but the glory of Kings [and their daughters!] is to search out a matter” Proverbs 25:2 :)