I didn’t get much sleep last night. I went to bed early but woke up around midnight and didn’t get back to sleep until 4 a.m. This surprised me because the last two days I’ve worked my tail off and was (and still am very much) physically exhausted. Both days were spent outside (for the most part) painting the porch (and it’s been HOT around here). I didn’t get it all done but the two windows are finished as are the posts and the primer on the baseboard and a few other areas. I also got the Bilco doors painted, and they look nice, though they should probably have another coat. The last time I painted the porch was 20+ years ago, and my what a difference those years have made! The will is still there, and I push myself more than I ought, but my body says, “Hold on, you can’t do that anymore!” I have to take frequent breaks not because I want to (I tend to want to stick at a job until it’s done) but because if I don’t I’ll pay later.
I’m not sure if this has anything to do with it, but I’d started a fast last week (before we bought the house), and ended it last night. I had wanted to go 40 days although something in me said that I might be stopping early. You can’t work like a horse if you’re not eating. I have at least three more weeks of working like this before I’ll even be close to done. The end result will be something good, but I didn’t think it wise to be up two stories on a ladder and be feeling weak. It was difficult enough on a stepladder! I’ll do my 40-day in the fall like I did last year.
The kids have started the process of applying for a mortgage to buy this place and have been preapproved. It still doesn’t seem possible that we’re doing this. Kevin said he’s going to miss this place. It’s surprising how unsentimental I am about it. Perhaps that’s due in part to the fact that it will still be in the family, so to speak. In the meantime, The Great Purge will begin next week as I begin to unload, garage saleing and Goodwilling what I don’t give away. I hope to get enough money to buy us new bedroom furniture. Matt will need to downsize to a twin bed as well so that’s another expense, and as his bedroom is so tiny we’re looking at a bed with storage underneath. There are a lot of cool ones out there. I haven’t allowed myself to do too much dreaming as of yet because the place isn’t ours yet and I can only dream about so much at a time, lol. Right now I’m dreaming about the day when I’ll be done painting!
We’re getting company today, relatives flying in from California (Kevin’s mother’s side) who have never been here before. It’s to be HH&H (hazy, hot, and humid), typical Pennsylvania July weather, and they will hate it! We’re not too fond of it either. The firemen’s carnival in town is going on, so that will be something we take them to and hopefully fireworks later (if the weather permits, and I hope it does!). We’ll probably go to a creek this afternoon to swim just to beat the heat. Probably won’t be alone at our favorite swimming hole.
I suppose I should log off and get to work. I’ve spent two days getting the outside of the house ready and could easily have spent as much time getting the inside ready as well! But I only have a few hours to do that! I’m thankful for our freedom and for the freedom Christ died to give me. I know that I am in the habit of saying “When I’m completely free…” but I already am. It’s already been paid for, I just need to walk it out. The Israelites were free when they entered the promised land, but they had to fight the giants before they could rest. There are still a few giants in my life, and that’s one of the reasons I was slowing–I mean fasting :) It’s a process, a journey I’m thankful to be on. It is for freedom that Christ has set us free! It’s time to celebrate!