I’ve had some difficulty trying to arrive at “a new normal” since my time at Global. There are areas of my life which have changed (more which still need to be changed), though I realize that change is a process and God is all about the process. If you’d have told me a couple of months ago that I would enjoy spending large chunks of time in “my upper room” just worshiping and reading and praying I’m not sure I’d have believed you. I was always so driven just to do do do, now I have little motivation to do anything and am trying to learn how to simply be. I’m the type of person who, when asked about themselves, would have listed what I did–that was the image I had of myself. Now I’m working on my identity in Christ. My mind has no problem with it. My heart still needs some work :)
I’m trying to find the balance. God knows I want more, but what am I doing with what I already have? For instance, I still don’t have my prayer language yet. Could it be that I don’t spend enough time using the language I already have? Yep, that’s a definite possibility.
Btw I ended my fast last week. I got terribly weak and had a peace about ending it, though no breakthrough occurred. Sometimes the results of a fast don’t occur right away though.